REQUEST - Moment with Kyungsoo - Childhood Memory

Childhood Apologies

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I love you… Kyungsoo, will you accept me? ...
No, I...I, Can’t...

3 Months later...

The air is moist, the rain is cold and heavy, the leaves aren't even green anymore. This season is called fall, when you and your loved one, is to hold hands and cuddle when the weather is gross out. But for Kyungsoo, that is all to easy to come by; he had turned down the feelings of a girl. His best friend, actually the only woman he cared about besides his mother.

He pulled his coat on and walked through his red front door, hands in pocket and sore throat, from crying, wrapped in a scarf. The rain hadn’t fallen on him, but it did earlier; the forecast predicted showers all day and night. Maybe a thunder storm would break out, he mocked mentally; only to be thanked with a raindrop on his soft hair. Pulling his hat and hood on, he made his way to a cafe hoping to get some warm beverage.

Walking through the cold weather, rain dripping from his hood; while he takes in the cold autumn and orange colors. Exhaling his warm breath into the cold air, he ran quickly to the opening door of the cafe. Such a contrast from the sudden rush of warmth and dry surroundings, that made this little place cozy and gentle. Nobody was really in the cafe; but a soup alone sounded really good.

“Hi, may I get a hot cocoa and some tomato soup please”
“Sure, It will be to you in a moment” The lady smiled at him.

Kyungsoo walked to a nearby table, thinking on nothing but why he said no to Ahreum; why he didn’t have the heart to just say he cared about her.

“Here you go, Thank You for coming in”

He gently tended to his warm soup, smiling as the warmth poured through his body, warming his stomach and soothing his dry throat. It didn’t take long for him to finish his soup, and his emotions picked up leaving him happy. Placing the cash on the table and taking his beverage with him, he wondered what Ms. Jeon was doing, and guilt flicked his heart. Sipping at his Hot Cocoa, he decided to go to the one place where he met her; the children’s park just a little ways down the road.

Flashback

Kyungsoo Oppa!

Ah, Ahreum, what is it?

How is my favorite oppa doing?

He is doing fine, how is my favorite person doing?

She is doing very well!

Kyungsoo winced at the happy spirit she was in that day, and how he just ruined it; seeing her cry and turn away.

Why won’t you accept me?

Because I just can’t right now...

But Oppa~ Forget it....

After she cut him short with words, she turned around and proceeded to leaving him standing there alone. She wouldn’t even let him touch her; he couldn’t comfort her and that was the worst part.

I can’t because; I’m not ready to love you more yet...

Kyungsoo shook the thought away, but not to far away; he always kept that one close to his heart. He had finally reached the park and smiled when he saw how the once green trees, were a golden orange; while he discarded his empty cup. The leaves were still hanging on the tree, with the exceptions of a few that were flying away in the wind. He remembered, the first time he met Ahreum, how she was quietly reading; smiling as he saw just how peaceful she was. It was like she was in her own little world, safe and sound, with the sunlight pouring through the trees. Her long brown hair slightly curled, lying softly on her back. The slight blush to her cheeks when he had noticed her and asked what book she was reading. Smiling deeply when she replied...

Wicked Lovely, I am kind of into fantasy right now....

He smiled brightly as if the sun had broken the dark clouds and heavy rain; until his heart thudded harshly in his chest, stopping just a bit by a nearby bench. The smile wiped off of his face, nothing but a quivering lip left.

“Ahreum?” his voice shaking.
You turned around and looked at him, your eyes of more surprise than sadness; like that day months ago.
“Kyungsoo...” your voice softly spoke.
“Let me say this~”

He grabbed your wrist lightly as you began to turn away from him; to walk the other way.
“What?”
“I am so sorry, for not being a man!” he slightly shouted.

Your eyes grew wet and you didn’t fight his hold on your wrist, nor did you fight back with words. You just ran through every feature on his face, eyes growing wetter as he continued to speak; allowing him too because you still love him.

“I wasn't a man when you needed me to be one. I wasn’t there when you needed me to be there. I failed you and I can’t explain how sorry and guilty I feel for saying~”
“What is this? HUH! Some joke? I left my heart out there and you played dodge ball with it...”

You gasped hard and wiped the fallen tear from your eye; swallowing your quivering breathes.

“Don’t touch me, don’t~”
“Don't what Ahreum, you are all I think about! I can’t erase that mistake I had made! All I can say is~”
“Say what? You broke me...”

Kyungsoo let your wrist go, and looked up to the dark sky, the rain falling on his face. Exhaling and looking back into your eyes; placing his hand on your left cheek.

“That day you asked me why I couldn’t accept you... You never let me tell you”

Your eyes, blinked away the tears they held.

“Then; I wasn’t ready to love you more than I already did.... But now I am more than ready to throw my life out there for you.”

He slowly placed his other hand onto your right cheek, holding your face securely, stepping in slowly; watching your eyes wander along his face.

“I love you Ahreum...”

He was now just a few breaths close, looking into your wet eyes, feeling your heart beat as his did.

“I love you”

He whispered one last time before pressing his warm lips to yours; not pulling back to breath. Holding you around the waist now, tightly as if you would become the rain he was surrounded by. Kissing you so deeply, tangible warmth spread like a silk ribbon through air.

“Kyung...Soo”

You broke the kiss, and placed your hand to his on your waist, gently squeezing his fingers.

“Hmm?” he responded
“I forgive you~”
“I love you, can I be the man, you need?”
“Yes, you have always been”

You said rubbing your nose against his and holding onto him, blinking as the hood of your coat fell off and the rain poured down on you.

“We better get inside before we both catch colds.” he whispered on your lips.
“I agree” you replied, gently pecking his lips. “Kyungsoo Oppa?”
“Yes”
“I’ve missed you ”
“Believe me I have missed you for a long time”
“Thanks for...Well for being you”
“Hmmm” he mumbled before kissing you one more time.
“I love you~”
“I love you too~”
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AN: Hey There ^^
I hope you enjoyed this one-shot of yours or like I enjoy calling them "Moments" <3
I enjoyed writing this one a lot and am so thankful for your request ^^
The plot was simple but emotional, the setting is one of my favorites and the connection of a childhood place was brilliant =] Hopefully i captured your moment well and please leave a comment <3